Monday, April 18, 2011

I just wanna be alone....

Of course we miss our friends. Of course you need to speak your own language from time to time and return home...

But still, it is good to be alone. To feel your self, your own thoughts, your own little, but actually HUGE world. It is amazing how much is going on in your mind and body, if you allow yourself to listen to it. If you are not scared of getting to know yourself.
Yes, it can be horrifying sometimes, and we prefer to live only outside, in this big world, with so many people ALWAYS around. But where is the time to breathe? To spend sometime with the INNER world?

We may have the feeling that more people means less lonely. But no. It is not like that, because you can become more insignificant in a big group. Because you can identify with the group, but ONLY with the group. And what do you identify with when you are actually alone? Nothing? Hm, too bad... You can get into the danger of loosing your self among so many other human beings. And you may be accompanied, but you may also still be lonely. 

What if you die without even knowing yourself? Without having listened to what you need and want?
How will anyone else know you then? Will we live wearing different masks all the time? Every day? With every different person? God, how tiring.....